只是有感而发。。。。
在开学的前一天，想把心情统统整理一遍。。
永恒，是什么？永恒这个字眼，大家都很熟悉，但真正做到的人，会有多少位呢？
我承认我的不完美，不够体贴，不够温柔，又爱吃醋，也喜欢乱闹脾气，因为我的不完美，所以，我可否要求身边的人变得完美？呵。。真得有点可笑。。。
在感情的道路上。。。我遭受过重重背叛，而这些背叛的背后，也掩盖着美丽的承诺。我们的山盟海誓，海枯石烂，永结同心。。。但，在被背叛的当下，说好的幸福呢？说好的永远在一起呢？
只抛下一句。。“当时我还小，思想不够成熟，见识不深。。只觉得那时的我们会是永恒的，但。。。我成长了，见识广泛了些，才知道，自己想要的是什么。你还年轻，路很长，你会遇到一个真能给你幸福的人。。。。”
那么，在一起这么长的时间。。算是什么？
或许是我傻，怎么轻易相信了你的誓言呢？或许我单纯。。。。或许。。我真的爱你，我从心中相信你所说的。。。。
事隔多年了。。心中始终放不下遭受背叛的过去。。。虽然当初只是。。纯纯的爱。。只怪我用情太深。。真的用了多年，才真的放下。
伤口虽然愈合。。但伤疤。。
永远停留——————————
现在的我长大了，或许吧。。人总会长大，可能。。只有一些些。。。
再次，认真踏入这段感情中。。。。
但，当我再次听到。。。我永远爱你，就只爱你。。。。这让我确定，我未曾放下过去。。我不敢再去相信。。。。
但是，我试图再去相信了你。。。
毕竟，我真有看见你的付出。
但，我应该再次相信吗？曾遭受过的背叛的？你不怕再次降临？是，你答应过，你绝对不会背叛，绝对对我一心一意？？但是这些话，我多年前已经听腻了。。。。。
常常说着我们的未来。。有时，说得忘了自我，以为一切都会成真。但大脑还是会不断浮现着。。。被挚爱背叛的那通电话。。。。
相爱时，当然会说永远爱你，永远对你不离不弃。。。感情久了，还会爱吗？
我们未来的路，还很长，你真能担保你的最爱会是我吗？
我认认真真地相信过你说的每一句话。。。。但，都值得相信吗？
倘若，再次遭受背叛。。。是谁的错？我吗？或者————————是你。
我认真，天真的以为，我们会是永远。真地，我真的希望着。。。。
我也相信，你并不是闹着玩。。。但，这种感觉，会有多久？一年？或是？——————我，不敢想象。。。
若真你也背叛了我，我会？崩溃吧。或者，觉得自己很失败。。
心中，一直想相信你，但是。。。事实叫我不要这么傻。。。在深的感情，也有崩塌的一天。。是我太偏激吗？但，我不敢再相信了。
世上，永久的爱，很难吗？？或是我不配拥有？
可能你觉得我写的很稚气，但，这就是稚气的我所有的想法。。。
生日就快到了。。。
生日愿望：希望我会幸福，也希望，身边真真爱我的人，永远幸福。。。。
终
Saturday, June 8, 2013
Sunday, July 1, 2012
an article
Doing the decent things.
The biggest barries people with disabilities encounter are other people. And from my perspective these days, no true words were ever spoken. Ignorance is one thing but disregard or disrespect for others' feelings is a totally different ball game.
Whoever said ' sticks and stone may break my bones but words will never hurt me ' must have had the thickest skin known to man. Seriously? You don't get affected by words people say or actions they do by you? that's virtually impossible I reckon.
Never mind words uttered to me months or weeks ago, I'm still struggling to shake off harsh words from a few years ago! Call me dramatic but whilst human actions may be possible to control, emotions are not so easy to hold back. And boy, are we humans dramatic.
I mean, EVERYONE has weak points at diferent times or for different reasons and granted, sometimes one may say the worst things when cornered, but I don't understand people who hit below the belt. That's just plain evil. Why would you rub salt in the wound, grind it in and cover it in cling film to keep the salt in place
The truth is, I believe we should take responsibility for our words and actions towards other people. Whilst how someone makes you feel may be you own responsibility, what the other party does to evoke such emotions is theirs. It goes beyond social responsibility, it's a responsibility each of us has as a human being.
Lessons learnt - if you feel you have been wronged by someone, speak up. Don't let it slide. Don't beat yourself up about it. It is not your fault and certainly okay to stand up for yourself. NO ONE has the right to make you feel insecure or inferior. And if you are ever confronted and called on something you may have said or done to another person, deal with it.
When you have been wrong, or done wrong, by someone, don't just keep quiet. Deal with it.
xx
The biggest barries people with disabilities encounter are other people. And from my perspective these days, no true words were ever spoken. Ignorance is one thing but disregard or disrespect for others' feelings is a totally different ball game.
Whoever said ' sticks and stone may break my bones but words will never hurt me ' must have had the thickest skin known to man. Seriously? You don't get affected by words people say or actions they do by you? that's virtually impossible I reckon.
Never mind words uttered to me months or weeks ago, I'm still struggling to shake off harsh words from a few years ago! Call me dramatic but whilst human actions may be possible to control, emotions are not so easy to hold back. And boy, are we humans dramatic.
I mean, EVERYONE has weak points at diferent times or for different reasons and granted, sometimes one may say the worst things when cornered, but I don't understand people who hit below the belt. That's just plain evil. Why would you rub salt in the wound, grind it in and cover it in cling film to keep the salt in place
The truth is, I believe we should take responsibility for our words and actions towards other people. Whilst how someone makes you feel may be you own responsibility, what the other party does to evoke such emotions is theirs. It goes beyond social responsibility, it's a responsibility each of us has as a human being.
Lessons learnt - if you feel you have been wronged by someone, speak up. Don't let it slide. Don't beat yourself up about it. It is not your fault and certainly okay to stand up for yourself. NO ONE has the right to make you feel insecure or inferior. And if you are ever confronted and called on something you may have said or done to another person, deal with it.
When you have been wrong, or done wrong, by someone, don't just keep quiet. Deal with it.
xx
Friday, June 8, 2012
June
Hey earthlings!
So I'm here again, in this meaningless midnight. I don't know why, I just feel like writing. Well I know it is stifling if I said so, but time does flies! In a blink of an eye. It is June again, four more days to go for my sixteen birthday.How can time pass so ridiculously fast!? It is implausible for me to believe that six months of two o one two had just passed . like . this . This is insane. Sincerely, I have to say, I don't think I study anything in these passed six months, all I remembered was having fun, fooling around and hanging out with friends. And oh ya, talk about my classmates, I have to say that, I love my classmates more and I'm glad to be with them in the same class if compare with the past 3 years of secondary life. They just rejoice me with no reason and I'm having great time with them, do really wish to be in the same class with them next year if there isn't any mistake in our final exams.
There's like a lot of things happened in this holidays. People goes and comes around. Some people just frightened me with their actions, because for me, they are wise, and they will never try to hurt the one they love. But, maybe this is just the view of mine. It just saddens me when people do whatever they love to do without any apprehension and like never care about the aftermath. They do things that sabotage one another, and after all, they end up regreting for doing all these silly things and make these stupid decisions.
And about me, I cant disavow, there's many things happened in me in these passed six months too. Tiny little things that changed me a lot. And all these things remind me to be a better person, and to remind me to change my attitude towards other. I can't deny that I'm an emotional person before this, and my emotional is like a beyond cure, nobody can ever try to change me. But now, after experienced many kind of things, I've learnt to grown up, and I'm trying my best to change for a better person, it's not too late to regret my actions and change myself now.. right? I'm still in the middle of process of learning, and I know it's not easy. But people, let's hope for the best!
Till then. xx
So I'm here again, in this meaningless midnight. I don't know why, I just feel like writing. Well I know it is stifling if I said so, but time does flies! In a blink of an eye. It is June again, four more days to go for my sixteen birthday.How can time pass so ridiculously fast!? It is implausible for me to believe that six months of two o one two had just passed . like . this . This is insane. Sincerely, I have to say, I don't think I study anything in these passed six months, all I remembered was having fun, fooling around and hanging out with friends. And oh ya, talk about my classmates, I have to say that, I love my classmates more and I'm glad to be with them in the same class if compare with the past 3 years of secondary life. They just rejoice me with no reason and I'm having great time with them, do really wish to be in the same class with them next year if there isn't any mistake in our final exams.
There's like a lot of things happened in this holidays. People goes and comes around. Some people just frightened me with their actions, because for me, they are wise, and they will never try to hurt the one they love. But, maybe this is just the view of mine. It just saddens me when people do whatever they love to do without any apprehension and like never care about the aftermath. They do things that sabotage one another, and after all, they end up regreting for doing all these silly things and make these stupid decisions.
And about me, I cant disavow, there's many things happened in me in these passed six months too. Tiny little things that changed me a lot. And all these things remind me to be a better person, and to remind me to change my attitude towards other. I can't deny that I'm an emotional person before this, and my emotional is like a beyond cure, nobody can ever try to change me. But now, after experienced many kind of things, I've learnt to grown up, and I'm trying my best to change for a better person, it's not too late to regret my actions and change myself now.. right? I'm still in the middle of process of learning, and I know it's not easy. But people, let's hope for the best!
Till then. xx
Friday, December 9, 2011
before 2011 ends
Hey Dolls!
I'm back to blogger again. Guessed I missed blogging too much.
Btw, how's everyone's doing? I bet you guys are having a blissful life right now. SHOULD BE.
I'm back to blogger again. Guessed I missed blogging too much.
Btw, how's everyone's doing? I bet you guys are having a blissful life right now. SHOULD BE.
Life is still..... stagnant. Especially holidays. I really have nth to do besides twitter,facebook or else shopping, sometimes. Feel so lifeless nowadays. Staying up late everynight and I dk thats called as insomnia or I'm having time reversal that make me really can't easily fall asleep everynight lol. Result of this, my face looks so dull now with the heavy eyebags and darkish mud-coloured skin+some pimples popping out to say hello with me. Oh my my.. :O
So, I'm stucked at home for the whole day and da things I'll like to do is having snack as my proper meal since I've missed out my breakfast lol. Not good not good. Recently I'm becoming thin and haggard wearing looking lol. Thin and pallid thats make me look sho ugly right now.... :(
Oh btw, my Pmr result is going to be released on 22 or 23 Dec. Wth I feel the butterflies are vomiting in my stomach everytime I talk abt my result. I wish I can score well plsss......
And I think I seriously need to have some sports right nowadays if not I'll be looking wan and sallow ONE DAY SOON. haihhhhh.
ok feel so giddy right now I guessed I'm gonna stop facing my com. Baibaii..
Stay tune for my next post! :)
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